Yesterday was a day I have been dreading. My Baby went to Student Life Camp. In Tennessee. On a bus. That will be on the freeway. And we are not with her.
It wasn’t that I didn’t want her to go, because I know she loves camp. I have very fond memories of going to camp myself in jr. and sr. high. It really has more to do with me and my “issues”. Issues that involve driving, and freeways, and our children being away from us.
It is something that I talk to God about a lot. Probably because it keeps coming up. Because, the kids, they like to do things.
You would think that I would not have these kinds of issues. After all, I was driving when we had our life changing car accident. So obviously, bad things can happen when I am in control. And truthfully, I don’t think it is a control issue. I am not a control freak type person, and I am not a worrier by nature.
What I think it is though, is more of an awareness that just because something hard has happened to you, it doesn’t exempt you from something hard happening again. And that is where the issue comes in. I KNOW that God is in control. I know that He loves us and has a plan for our lives. I know that in this world, we will have trouble and I know that He is FAITHFUL to provide what we need to weather the troubled times. But I am also aware that I have not seen all of the trouble that I am going to experience in my life.
When you are filling out all of the permission slip/ paper work that camp involves, and putting your health care information on there, and having the whole kit and caboodle notarized, it all takes on a tone. And it makes me think about trouble. And pray that it’s not time for more trouble.
I have had many conversations with my dear friend Vickie about this. Because she is pretty much my therapist and mentor. And some years, I am pretty sure I was her part time job! She always has good advice, and has pointed me to Jesus on a thousand, or so, occasions. And guess who came to get her hair done this week? Isn’t that just like God? To give me a friend to talk with, the very week I needed one!
I’m not sure that we even talked about the actual issue, but it didn’t matter. Her presence and her Godly wisdom calmed me, and reminded me that prayer is essential, and God hears our prayers. I know that His will is going be done. But I also know that He says to ask for what we want. So I am going to ask for what I want. And this is what I want:
1. For Mousey to be safe from all harm and evil.
2. For a hedge of protection to be around her, the bus, and the other kids.
3. The bus driver to be alert and have wisdom.
4. Keep ALL vehicles, animals and THINGS away from them, and keep them on the road.
5. That she would learn this week that our God is even more awesome than she knew!
Mousey knows that I have issues. Probably not all the ins and outs of them, but she has observed that I have some trouble in this area. So she was very sweet when she said goodbye to me.
But, then I got sidetracked and started talking to people. When I finally left, I had to have another hug and kiss. I whispered in her ear that I was sorry, I have a hard time letting her go. She gently said “I know”, and gave me a long, sweet hug, and then I left. I love that little Mousey.
























