It was 14 years ago today that the kids and I were in the car accident that altered the course of our lives. I wrote about it here last year. Honey had the date wrong for years. The kids would not be able to tell you if you asked them. One, maybe two, might know the month. I can’t seem to forget.
While I don’t want to seem maudlin about this every year, I feel I need to address it. As I address all things on this blob. Be they trivial, or somehow, important to me. There is a veil of sadness that descends. It affects me. To deny it, would be dishonest.
I can’t help but go back and remember that day, that season of our lives. Re-live it, re-think my decisions, remember what our family was like on October 6, 1995. We had a good life, a happy family. Not perfect, by any means, but we knew we were blessed.
I wish that I had kept a journal of those days after the accident. To record all the ways that the Lord showed us mercy and grace. How He provided us with the support that we so desperately needed, daily. How prayers for our family ricocheted across the country. To remind myself of all the “God things” that happened. He did all those things to encourage us, to help us remember that we weren’t in this without Him.
Whenever I say “I wish…” about anything, Honey always says, “I wouldn’t waste a wish on that”. I’m here to tell you that I would waste a wish on that.
I have a box, up in my closet. Filled with cards and notes from people, known and unknown. Praying for us, lifting Abby before the Lord, asking for healing. I have not looked at them in a long time, but I keep them, because I know that I will want to go through them again. Someday.
I have a place up in my heart that is full, full, full of the love and kindness that was shown to us. Our Family, our church Family, Friends, Abby’s school, and strangers opened their hearts to us. You don’t forget things like that.
People cut our lawn, made us meals, did our laundry, cleaned our house, cared for our children, visited us while we lived at the hospital for 7 weeks. Did for us, when we could not do for ourselves.
Though he stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with His hand. Psalm 37:24
That’s what happened. He upheld us with His hand. He used a lot of you that read this blob. And a lot of others who don’t.
When Abby was in the PICU, there was a cassette player above her bed. We brought her favorite lullaby tape from home. It was a Disney thing that all 3 of our children loved. We brought others as well, but she requested this one over and over. I’m pretty sure that she was not listening to the words, but I was. It was heartbreaking.
A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you’re fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true
The first time that she was able to stay awake and alert for any length of time, she asked for her colored pencils. I gave her some lined paper that I had in my purse. She drew a rainbow. That entire 7 weeks in the hospital, she drew rainbows. We have much of her rainbow collection. I believe those rainbows were a kiss on the cheek from God.
So, even though the last 14 years of October 7ths have not started out as the best day, it always works itself around to the part that I like remembering. God’s faithfulness. I cannot have one, without the other.
We still have a good life. And a happy Family. And we will SO never be perfect! Or normal. We are still blessed.

Summer of ‘95



This was in the little devotional thingy that came to our e-mail box this morning.
But it is good for me to draw near to God; I have put my trust in the
Lord God, that I may declare all Your works.
Psalm 73:28
Timely, I must say.